When you
are walking a pilgrimage of 70 miles, you learn so much about yourself, God and
creation. One of the best teachers is
pain. During my pilgrimage walking El
Camino de Santiago, I was given a unique opportunity to walk and learn through
my pain.
My pain
began before I left Texas in the middle of my move. I did not have time to properly prepare for
the journey, so I chose to wear my hiking boots to work as preparation. I work at a church that has many stairway
passages. I decided it would be good to
opt for the stairs every chance I could.
Yet, I had not learned my lesson from pain so I pounded away toe to toe
up and down the stairs. Soon walking my
dog around the neighborhood resulted in excruciating pain in my left knee. I was dumbfounded at this pain. Rather than lash out at God about why this
was happening to me, I asked Him the what I could learn from pain that
threatened my participation in the pilgrimage I had planned for five
years. Rather than panic, I prayed for
healing. Because of my pain I agreed to
spend the money on knee braces and walking sticks that my friend had wanted to
get for the trip. I stopped taking the
stairs and started walking more purposefully heel to toe and my pain
disappeared. Lesson learned, all
accomplished, I thought.
Obviously,
there was more to be learned. The first
few days were great, but the third and fourth nights my room was only one
flight up, so I elected for the stairs rather than the elevator. I had forgotten that the proper step
protected my knee and I ended up triggering my pain. The next day I had to walk slowly along the
pilgrimage. Another pilgrim was limping
and she didn’t want me to go slowly with her, but I explained that my knee hurt
and walking her pace was better for me.
Along the way, I tried many ways of walking and discovered that slowly
and purposely placing my heal down first gave more support. Pain has its
gifts. While others around me were
huffing and puffing and complaining about the long uphill passages, I found them
pain free and didn’t mind experiencing shorter breath and the more effort
required to climb.
The
lessons I learned about pain are that pain is very personal. Pilgrims who passed felt sympathetic to me as
they watched me struggle to walk down hill in an awkward pace. They were full of all kinds of advice as if
they knew what would make my pain less painful, but their advice only made
things worse. I was surprised to
discover that what I had learned from my pain was actually scientifically
validated. I met a physical therapist
who told me how to walk in a way that supported my knee better. It was similar to the way that I was walking
only she told me to swing my hips more and we agreed that walking backwards
down hills was a good way to build my muscles in order to reduce my knee pain.
It is
the same way with emotional pain. Our
pain is very personal. Not all widows heal
in quite the same way as me. It’s
important to keep this in mind when we are bearing one another’s pain. God does not heal us in the same exact way,
though He does heal each one of us. We
all have something very important to learn about our pain. Pain is one of the best teachers in
life. I learned that I could depend on
God to give me strength to carry on through my pain. I learned that going a little slower opened
opportunities to take in more of God’s glory.
I learned that walking and talking with others brought distraction from
my pain. I learned that friends and
strangers offer a lot of compassion to someone in pain. Honestly, I don’t think
I would have benefited as much from the pilgrimage if I had been pain free. I’ve learned that James was right when he
said: Consider it a
great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, knowing that
the testing of your faith produces endurance. But endurance must do its
complete work, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing (James
1:2-4). I’m truly grateful for my
pain. By the way, does anyone have the
name of a good orthopedic doctor?
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