Soul Sister Time

              Grieving has a beginning, middle and an end; groaning on the other hand is a different story.   Groaning will not end until the sons of God have been revealed.    People experience grief over specific events in life.   Groaning is so comprehensive that it involves every miniscule aspect of creation from the tiniest blade of grass to the incomparable soul of man.     I know that I will push through my grief, but my heart will never stop groaning and I will not be alone.   Romans 8:22-23 says, We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies.             Groaning is a gift from God that helps us find peace and community from our common plight of being distanced from Him.   God’s word tells me that all of creation groans.   I understand how the cr

            Of the over 1,000,000 prayers that were prayed on behalf of my husband, I don’t know of one prayer that asked God to take him home to heaven.   Selfishly, none of us wanted to let go.   I felt these prayers as they bombarded heaven along with mine.   I asked God to miraculously heal my husband right up until the very end.   I know that God could have done that for me.   I believe that He has the power.   I know He has done that for others (albeit rarely).   Brian was always one to get the remarkable blessing.             As Peter is quoted in Acts 11:17, Who was I to think that I could stand in God’s way?   Peter was dealing with a spiritual reformation that included bringing the Gentiles into God’s love and plan of salvation for the world, long promised in the Abrahamic Covenant.   Yet the same principle applies to me.   It applies to Brian too.   I don’t think he could have wanted to leave me, our children, and all the people he loved and served.   So it wasn’t

I wrote this devotion to be emailed on July 23 rd .   You now understand why I didn’t send a weekly devotion that day, as it was the day my husband passed from this earth.   The next week I sent a blog written by a friend, and last Monday I was not able to write.   As I read over what I wrote it takes on even deeper meaning.   The application I used in my life was much lighter than what it is today.   I will continue to keep my Baptismal Covenant even with my broken heart.   I also know that I will continue to fail at times.   It is only because of my perfect Covenant Keeping God that I have spiritual purpose in this life.   I will continue in the apostle’s teaching and fellowship, in breaking of bread, and in the prayers.   I will persevere in revisiting evil, and whenever I fall into sin, repent and return to the Lord.   I will proclaim by word and example the Good News of God in Christ—(my only hope in the loss of my husband).I will seek and serve Christ in all persons, loving m